signs of life

yup i'm still alive, though some days it seems just barely. things have been busy most days yet not so busy other days and with all the time on my hands you'd think I would have time to write on here more often but nooo....
so yes things have been mostly busy. there was a quizmeet in nipawin a couple weeks ago already. that was a good time and helped me to work out goals for this year in that so twas good. hmmm Christmas is only a few weeks away. aaaaaahhhhh. it's crazy. I'm not really worried about all the shopping or anything like that. it's just all those darn English assignments that are due right before Christmas break. then right after break we write the provincial English exam. It's retarded but what can ya do right? I've kinda moved between moods of self-pity to moods of "everything's awesome right now" i don't like having pity parties cuz they just suck like crap and make you feel bad at the same time. so ya right now it's somewhere in between the self-pity mode and "everything's awesome" mode but closer to the latter thank goodness. God's been doing a lot in my life and I've been doing some pretty hard core soul searching and ya it's pretty revealing of what is actually inside of me. you think you're all good and everything and then something happens and God shows you for who you really are inside. not the greatest feeling in the world but there's beauty from pain so I definitely believe some good will come from this. so ya. Life goes on. Most of the time it's good. yup I think I am now done. So till the next time I randomly decide to come on here...adios!

luv n hugz
alissa